I was looking over some bankruptcy papers that Mara left behind. There’s at least one thing she’s been untruthful about. She told me that the van was not on the bankruptcy settlement, but the paperwork shows clearly that it is. So essentially Mara was willing to let me volunteer to pay the bankruptcy settlement, thinking… Continue reading Mara's Bankruptcy Papers
Mara’s gone. I just helped her load the van and I sat on the porch steps and watched her drive up the road. I know I should never admit it, but the tears started when I went back into the house. Thank the gods that Mama wasn’t here. I think I needed to let all… Continue reading Mara's Gone
I’m home. I came home as an act of defiance. Mara was not going to relegate me to sleeping in the truck tonight. Whatever she may think, she does not have that authority. I told her when I came in that she could sleep on the couch for all I care, but I was not… Continue reading Act Of Defiance
I have to say, that last bit with Mara was just adding insult to injury. That tore down whatever positive spin I’ve managed to put on things. But she’ll be gone soon, and she won’t be able to hurt me anymore.
I truly had no idea how fucked up Mara is. She doesn’t want me to come home tonight because she feels like sleeping in the same bed with me would be like cheating on her boyfriend. At least tomorrow her insanity will be leaving my life. May God’s gentle mercy be with the hapless fellow… Continue reading Cheating On Mara's Boyfriend
Okay, I’ve decided that this is my atonement for my sins against one Paul Malone, and especially the sin of moving to St. Augustine, Florida with his wife, Faith in 1991. I doubt Mr. Malone would take any comfort in it, but I believe my karmic debt has just been paid.
Mara fessed up. She told me she was going to Vegas with Cathy and some friends. Now she admits she’s going out there to see a guy. My wife is talking to me about her boyfriend. And I’m fine with it. Maybe I’m crazy. I don’t know. But there’s an odd comfort in the finality… Continue reading Mara's Going To Las Vegas
I am such a dumbass. Here I was feeling all positive about things and being proud of myself for being so understanding. Just found out that Mara has booked a flight for Las Vegas. I’m actually laughing about this because it’s so fucking absurd. It sure doesn’t look like Mara’s going to lose any sleep… Continue reading What Did I Really Expect?
I experienced a transformation today. I went from being hurt and angry to feeling kind of positive about things. I just talked to Mara and I told her that all is well. This doesn’t have to be nasty. And I would like to remain friends. Realizing that last bit probably helped me more than anything.… Continue reading From Hurt And Angry To Positive
Talked to Dawg a little while ago. I mostly called to see if he would be at home tomorrow so I could take his bass to him. I also jumped the gun a bit and asked him if he and Lea would be interested in renting the house. That’s the only way I can think… Continue reading Renting The House